The drama Eternal Love of Dream 三生三世枕上书 may be basking in the glow of the series’ rising popularity from old and new fans alike, but things aren’t looking quite peachy in the Three Lives Three Worlds world. Liu Yuefei, the actress known to all as Ji Heng in the drama just wrote a long post on her social media yesterday hinting at her unhappiness and thoughts of suicide. In the post, the actress wrote about “a little girl” who has dreamt of buying her own skirt as a child.
“One day she finally saved enough money to buy a dress that she loved. Looking at it in her arms made her so happy. But the good times didn’t last long. The designer of this skirt became in demand and the skirt suddenly became a coveted item. Knowing that this skirt was in the hands of the little girl, everyone scolded her for being ugly and inferior, saying that she couldn’t afford it! They threw eggs at her, cursed her family to death, and forced her to surrender it to the princess with all kinds of vicious words! The little girl couldn’t stand it and cried until she collapsed. The love light in her eyes gradually dimmed, and the little girl lost the courage to wear her own skirt. Since the skirt was like her child, it would be better if she gave it away than for it to suffer with her!
But she couldn’t bear to give up her skirt. Watching her dreams become the wedding dress of others… everyone rejoiced! But no one saw the loneliness in her eyes … She thought the nightmare was over and totally did not expect another round of vitriol to come. “Oh, you made so much money, why aren’t you thanking the princess, no one looks at you when you wear it, you are a disgusting ugly monster…” No one knew what she gave up was of immeasurable value in her heart, it’s because she loved it, like her own childhood dream!
She gradually lost weight, and finally chose to end her life … How unfortunate. I don’t know whether to call it lucky or sad. She was rescued and woke up with her heartbroken family looking at her. She felt defeated and often wondered if she could continue to be strong and live on . In order to forget, she changed her name and left her childhood home. She thought she could get on with her life and live quietly but the whole brouhaha was back again. The airing of “the skirt” saw her getting scolded by everyone, saying that she changed the skirt to suit herself. Just because she is the original owner, everyone assumes she can make changes like a tailor, regardless of the fact that this skirt already has a new owner when it was released!”
Netizens have inferred that the “little girl” the actress was talking about is herself, and The Pillow Book is the metaphorical skirt she’s alluding to in the post. Liu Yuefei actually acquired the rights to adapt the Pillow Book series long before Three Lives Three Worlds Ten Miles of Peach Blossoms aka Eternal Love became such a HUGE hit internationally in 2017. She probably had the intention to star as Fengjiu too but because fans have been pushing for Dilraba Dilmurat’s Fengjiu and Vengo Gao’s Dong Hua pairing in Eternal Love all while the actress was being criticised as “unsuitable” to play Fengjiu, Liu Yuefei conceded to play the second fiddle in the series.
The criticism didn’t end there for the actress as despite her action to defer to the people’s choice of Fengjiu, netizens continued to attack and bash her online once the series aired. Moreover, there are two more things that further gave credence to the supposition that the little girl she was referring to was herself. First, the actress actually tried to commit suicide in 2018 by taking some pills. Thankfully she was rushed to the hospital just in time. Secondly, Liu Yuefei is her “new” name since she was originally calledLiu Yuxin.
“She hid herself in the darkness again, alternately reliving the feelings of outrage, anger, pain, hatred, forgiveness, inferiority, comfort, and destruction … She wants to have a live broadcast of her death! What should she do? Who will write an ending to her story?”
The internet can be a great place, but it can also be a cruel place. The cruelty that has led to this negative headspace and the amount of vitriol cannot be justified. Concerned fans who saw the parallel between the little girl and Liu Yuefei’s own life situation thankfully rallied around, leaving her comments of support and love. Hopefully, the actress can take some time off, get some therapy, spend some time with her family and perhaps lay off social media for the time being to better take care of herself away from the naysayers.
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Nano13
Yikes! Hopes she finds help…life is too precious …ji Heng character was annoying in the book and so far drama as well…
Anonymous
Crazy fans I tell ya
Anonymous
I don't like her story about suffering so much like that just because of 1 skirt??????? Girl, find something else to do please. Why should anyone exchange their life for things like that? Just lower your expectation.
The internet is an ugly place and lots of bullying, but if anyone choose being a celebrity they must know how to ignore those bad comments.
Every actresses get bullied too. She should take DLRB for example. Most people might find DLRB pretty but she gets bullied, not everyone finds her pretty actually and calls her fat. Ugly weird and unporpotioned face. Manly face. And of course they always say she can't act. Lots of things. She is obviously upset but it doesn't look like she is super competitive and will suicide for those things. There are way more to life than just your looks and career.
Nobody is ever going to meet the chinese beauty standard so she needs to lower her expectation. Having a good face and career like her is way ahead of so many people already. She is not going to be the top because honestly she isn't ugly but not pretty enough for the type of job too, just learn to accept it and don't make it the worse thing ever on earth it really is not.
Anonymous
Honestly feel bad for her. She saw something with potential and had dreams of making a name for herself only for it to be snatched away and people curse her just for having a good idea.
Anonymous
This is really just heartbreaking. Tbh, as a loyal fan of three lives three world's series novels who has been obsessed with them for years even before these drama adaptions come along, I was one of those upset fans when I read the news about her buying the copyright to TPB and planning to take the role of Fengjiu. She just wasn't someone we could picture as Fengjiu. And I still feel the same way. That role is just not for her. But, it's still wrong of people to hate her for it. She's an actress and it's not her fault that she saw a role she loved and wanted to portray it. It was out of pure love for the work since when she bought it, three lives three worlds series wasn't that big.
Anyway, I just hope she's getting better soon and stay away from the social media for the time being since Ji Heng character is going to get worse and hate comments for Ji Heng are bound to hit again. It's something any actress should have expected as soon as they took the role of a hated character. I just hope the fans don't attack the actress personally and the hate only stay with the character.
Anonymous
I really don't know what to say. Let's start with saying it's very sad that she tried to commit suicide. I hope she heals soon and gets those thoughts away from her head, learn to be happy, etc. It's very unfair that happened to her. But at the same time, I've got to say isn't she kind of overreacting? I mean, just because she didn't get to star in the role she wanted doesn't make life not worth living. There's always another drama you can be the main star in – it's not like you're too old for it.
Also, I don't get why people are talking trash about her Ji Heng character or the actress herself. I've only watched 6 episodes and I have to say she is my favorite character. Yes, I know this comment is going to cause controversy (my comments always do, argh) but I have to say this.
Anonymous
Apparently fans are bashing her because the storyline added alot of extra scenes for Ji Heng, with her memory loss and new character in the Mortal realm. Now they are scared she will appear once again in the Aranya Dream arc as well. Which might not be her fault because dramas nowadays add alot of extra scenes to lengthen the episode count. Feng Jiu-Dong Hua had alot of scenes added for them in Eternal Love as well. But everybody thinks its her fault because she used to own the rights to the novel, and they think she uses this to get the production team to add scenes for her character.
Well tbh her scenes so far bore me. And her face is unpleasant to look at. A younger and more beautiful actress would have made the character more appealing and perhaps audience will fall in love with Ji Heng like they did with Feng Jiu (despite having lots of extra and unnecessary screentime).
Anonymous
No, you are not wrong. Ji Heng character is very likeable atm. But most of the viewers of ELoD have read the book and they know her character is going to give lots of troubles to the main couple. No matter the script writers changed the start of her journey, being one of THE villains of the story is the end game for Ji Heng. That's the reason her character is getting hates from the start. I have no words for those who attacked the actress personally though. It is just wrong. The character she plays in the drama does not represent who she is in real life after all.
Anonymous
Man, some people are harsh. Saying that she's reaching and there's no need to be so overdramatic (yes, I'm talking bout some people here in these comments too). People are different, they react differently to things. Some people snap earlier, and get depressive easier. People forget celebrities are also human. They get hurt too. I've been diagnosed with having depression before, because of some stupid things that happened in life. I didn't have people yelling at me online, but I can only imagine how much it hurt her. And the fact that she wrote her story about the skirt and posted it on weibo shows that she's seriously trying her hardest to convey her emotions about needing help. Seriously tho, I hope people that know her in real life are able to reach out to her and give her some help.
Anonymous
For those who are saying she committed suicide just because of the novel, its not entirely true. Apparently her husband cheated on her and the third party, who is also an actress called Zhang Meng, mocked her on Weibo. She came from a single family, and and has always wanted a happy family, so this was a huge blow to her.
Her husband also passed some illness to her, which caused her boobs to swell at a public event. But then netizens didn't know the truth and bashed her for being promiscuous.
Anonymous
you are completely missing the point. Everyone has their own struggles in life and people shouldn't judge others simply because they don't think it's something worth complaining about. You clearly don't know what it's like to have mental health issues and have to put up with those issue on a daily basis.
Nano13
Now I’m thinking maybe that’s the deal she made in giving up the copyright FJ but get more screen time .. seriously she should seek help we don’t want another tragic suicidal like in s.k last few months … and I hope her managers and friends/family able to help ..
Marina Lee
Are you… really dense to think she's talking about a freaking skirt? It's a metaphor. An allusion to her struggles as an actress and artist. People like you who think your words are coming from the "right place" are the kind of people who actually throw stones without caring at all about the other person. Please do yourself a favor and learn to be more mindful. Just because every actress gets bullied doesn't mean we should just learn to live with it. Words and hurtful comments wear down people's mentality, will to thrive. We need to address hate and put people in their place when they're being unreasonable.
Anonymous
I hope the haters will stop bullying her and she gets help and support from her loved ones. Nobody deserves to be bullied like this.
Comments on this site are always bullying popular actresses like Yangmi, Yangzi, Dilraba, Zhao Liying etc too. I would appreciate it if people could keep their negativity to themselves and the moderators of this site should take strict action against bullying comments
Anonymous
i don't think it's just about the pillow book, although it might be breaking point. she has a very complicated personal life. her husband cheated on her with a well known actress while she was pregnant. she was also criticized/mocked for having plastic surgery. in addition, she was also hated for the "exposed" incident where her breasts were exposed publicly and ppl said she did it for attention (i'm not exactly sure about the details for this).
i haven't read the novel but i don't think jiheng did anything wrong so far either. spoilers below.
(yes, she did take credit for fengjiu's work and it was wrong of her, but fengjiu's reaction was immature as well.)
Anonymous
@6.b I'm the one who wrote the original comment. Yes, I SOOO agree with the last part. Feng Jiu is just … I don't know what to say. She needs discipline from her Bai Qian!!
Anonymous
Agree! The bad thing about being a popular actress is that while there are so many people who love you, there are TONS that hate you. The world is unfair 🙁
Anonymous
Ugh people need to see the truth. Thanks for this comment!!! 🙂
Anonymous
Here, here. Another comment that is bullying the actress.
Anonymous
I'm not defending Fengjiu in that incident. I'm just answering your question of 'why people are talking trash about her Ji Heng character'. The reason, I already gave it to you. It's because people know she's one of the villains of this story. And if you want spoilers, I will give it to you for 6.c sake. Fengjiu doesn't need any discipline from anyone. She will find her own way with her own strength while learning from her mistakes. There's a reason why TPB is more famous and loved by fans than TMOPB, books wise.
Anonymous
What dose it mean she owns the rights for the character? Can someone explain?
Anonymous
To own the rights to the character means she can use that character's name and characteristics. For example – TMOPB owned the rights to Donghua and Fengjiu characters this they could use them in the drama. But they didn't have the rights to the actual plot of them this they wrote another version for them. I hope I made my answer clear for you.
Anonymous
@6d: Really? TPB has mixed opinions because it was rather messy and not everyone can understand the novel. In any case its hard to see TPB becoming a bigger hit than TMOPB drama-wise.
Anonymous
ELoD is still in the early stage where they are building the characters set up for the bigger picture. It's still too early to judge it and yes, TPB novel is much loved by the fans than TMOPB book because of the deeper plot and better characterization. But I agree on one thing though. It will be really hard to bypass TMOPB drama-wise. Not only ELoD in this case, it's the same with other xianxia dramas too. TMOPB success was just too great to catch up for any drama.
Anonymous
Can't get into the novel no matter how much I try :/ And I much prefer Bai Qian's character. Oh well here is hoping the drama would be good.
Anonymous
There's nothing wrong with not liking the book. It's to each their own. Being more popular book does not mean you have to like it. I'm just trying to explain the situations and that there's a reason why so many others enjoy and love the book and that you need to go into the drama more to make a fair judgement.
Anonymous
But it seems like novel fans are trying to justify why people should love the drama BASED on the book. Cos I don't think the drama follows the novel faithfully; they changed details. One glaring example is why Feng Jiu scratched Ji Heng. Your explanations don't make sense.
Honestly alot of people I know who hasn't read the book is puzzled about the setting of the drama and find it awkward and weird.
And I'm not convinced TPB has more fans than TMPOB (novel-wise). There's no statistics to show other than your statement here.
Anonymous
People are naturally hateful to Ji Heng. I think this is because in the book (I didn't read it, btw) she's supposed to be a sort of villain. But in the drama she's the best!! I love her – she's my favorite character – and I've only watched 8 episodes so far. I'm so happy that she's going to have more screen time! Also, I don't get people who say she isn't pretty. Uh, yeah she is, she's just not "very beautiful". And SERIOUSLY, PEOPLE NEED TO REMEMBER THAT ACTORS ARE NOT MODELS. YES THEY NEED TO BE DECENT-LOOKING BUT NOT "THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PERSON" IN THE WORLD. Sheesh. They're ACTORS, they're supposed to rely mainly on their acting. Like bruh.
Sorry for the lengthy comment btw. But also I am tired of people thinking the younger you are the more suited you are for this or that role. I'm just a teenager and am very tired of that. My favorite actors/actresses are all in their 30s. I feel like nowadays actors are still being picked on their looks and it's so, SO annoying. We don't care if they look super pretty or not – we want people who KNOW how to act.
Anonymous
Uh ok? But the role is a young female. You can like older actors but majority of the people prefer YOUNG actors for IDOL dramas. There are lots of genres suitable for mature actors. And y'know, the princess is a "big beauty" as stated in the drama so yes, looks do matter for this character. There is different genres and characters suited for different actors, so don't generalize. Heck, looks obviously do matter; just go look at the most popular actors and actresses of each country.
And no, not everyone is hateful to Ji Heng. She has some ardent fans like yourself. There are some who hate her because they read the novel and know she is a villian, but others don't like her simply because her storyline and/or the actress herself is not appealing.
Anonymous
Search for the books ranks in Chinese novels sites (heck even in novelupdates site, TPB is rated higher) you will see TPB ranks so much higher than TMOPB. I can't believe someone was patiently explaining people like you when it's obvious that you are just here to hate on the drama. Please, 6.h, no more explaining to this troll.
Anonymous
Can't accept different opinions so you resort to calling people a troll? Please we don't want explanations from novel fans you guys can keep it, because it won't change the general audience's opinion about this drama.
Anonymous
I agree its pointless to keep bringing up the drama. Everyone has the right to judge a drama based on their viewing experience.
Anonymous
General Audience's Opinion. Lol. And let me guess, you represent it? Have you been even checking ELoD achievements in a short time they have released? Have you seen how it's doing so well in the charts? Well, you haters can keep your freaking opinions then. Because it won't change the majority of the audience's opinion about the drama. Yes, I call it MAJORITY because majority of the viewers come from the book fans. If you want to say something shitty, do your background research first ffs. And don't even think about trying to argue with the douban result, there's a fanwar going on with it and the rating is the result of it. Or are you also someone from a certain fandom? Hmmm..
Anonymous
Nope. I don't represent it but I have a right to comment, whether it is pleasant to your ears or not. I'm not gonna shut up just because you call me a "hater". You suddenly bringing in "douban" and fandom wars already show your insecurity about the quality of this drama. Live with it. There will always be people who dislike the drama and Feng Jiu as a character. Bringing in words like "hater" and "shitty opinion" won't make yours right. Let's see in a few weeks whether this drama will be a huge hit like you guys describe it, or just another mediocre drama.
And yes, I am from the Eternal Love fandom.
Anonymous
Great. I caused ANOTHER controversy again.
Yuina
I heard before that douban and other ratings are often rigged so they don't mean anything.
If the drama is following the storyline closely enough, not 100% but at least 90% then I would have to agree with whoever up there saying PillowBook is not better than TMOPB. Just because it will have a happy ending (I heard) does not mean it is better. ALOT happened in TMOPB it's hard to explain to someone about what happened, but in PillowBook I can just count with my fingers that the girl started out as the immature fan girling the male lead, then turned mature after a few of those regular mortal arcs with him, and then happily ever after. That's just too simple, even 20 episodes will be too much fillers for such a short story and this is 60 episodes?
Anonymous
Ah, I'm a fan of both TMOPB and TPB. I have read all the books of Tangqi Gongzi and watched TMOPB adaption like 3 or 4 times (it's one of the greatest xianxia dramas of all time!)and love it dearly. BaiQian and YeHua story has gripped my heart so tightly and never let it go until now. And to be honest, TPB drama adaption hasn't lived up to the book's reputation so far, YET (Please don't attack me. I added 'YET')
Ok, let's talk about the books. TMOPB was faced with heavy plagiarism allegations against the author with so many proofs which the author admitted later by saying she liked the story of that author(the one she was accused of plagiarising from) was influenced by it. And that's the reason the book was scorned by the fans, not because the story of BQ and YH was less interesting than TPB. Ok, moving on, let's talk about TPB. It would be really unfair to describe this book by saying it's a story of an immature little girl chasing after her crush and after a few arcs later, she turned mature. Because it's more than that. This is the book T7 really put her heart into writing and there are 3 arcs in it. And in every single arc, the story of their different life time is very heart wrenching and have a complete plot. It was very beautifully written which the adaption drama has failed to portray so far.
But I agree with someone up saying that it's still early to judge the drama would turn out good or not with it's only released a few episodes and the good parts of the story hasn't arrived yet. And I'm also agree with the one saying every viewer has the right to voice out their opinion on the drama from their own experience.
And also, it's not nice to force your takes on the drama on others nor misleading others with your negativity. Ok, I've said my piece and I won't be replying to anyone. Have a nice day, everyone!
Anonymous
I didn't know she suffered so much. But let's be honest, this is not an excuse to add so many scenes for herself. Watching Pillow Book right now and I feel like skipping all her scenes! Its like watching the demon princess and Mu Ci in Ashes of Love ever again! I'm just thankful she is not Feng Jiu.
Anonymous
Liu Yuefei made all the wrong decisions. She is the best example how a celebrity Shouldn't handle the hardships/rough patch in her life.. before I get hate let me explain this in details.
She works in the type of industry where the whole world will not stop for one person, there are many actors who struggled for years before getting their big break but even after that they need to be on top of their game to survive for a long period of time. Take the recent example of the actor XZ (Untamed) he did so may side roles for so many years before landing the role of "Wei wuxian" and finally earning his place in top actors. In this industry u might lose many of ur dream roles but can end up bagging better one. That's the harsh truth. Liu Yuefei did buy the copyright of for Pillow Book but for some reason she waited too long before starting the production work by that time some other production got the copyright for peach blossom which was also their DREAM PROJECT and they made the series a huge hit of 2017 with the perfect cast. It was because of dilraba and vengao the characters of fengjiu and donghua Became famous, it was because of them people were even interested in reading the novel whereas Liu Yuefei just wasted years by clutching to her copyright. Now it's her decision whether to take the risk and play the role of fengjiu and make the series a huge flop or choose the mature road, accept her bad luck, and give the role to the deserving ones and make profit from the production to invest in an another epic novel and make sure not to repeat the mistake of stalling for years. But instead she choose to throw herself a pity party in public when she also had lot of personal life problems with her husband and scandals, like she choose the worst time to draw attention on herself and ended up becoming the scapegoat for trolls. She made a series of worst choices and everything went downhills from then on..
I really pray she learns form this experience and becomes little mature to survive in the cutthroat industry.